So 2016 has been one heck of a complicated year. January my then 4 year old fainted at school, she was then taken by ambulance to Doernbecher where we stayed for 5 days, then we were thankfully home for her 5th birthday but shortly after we were re admitted in Feburary because her pacemaker was trying to make a break for it. The second stay was for 2 weeks where they tried to rule out infection. She was let out and we resumed a somewhat normal life. She couldn’t go back to preschool because she needed 8 weeks of healing and well preschool got out mid may so it didn’t make any sense to have them hold a spot for her when she’d only be back for one week.
March my oldest turned 12 and had a good low key birthday celebration which was just what we needed. My oldest also needed her tonsils and adnoids out, this went off without a hitch but a week later she ended up hemmoraging and needing to go into emergency surgery which ended up being harder to fix than they thought and they ended up stitching up her throat. Towards the end of the month my step dad died, very quickly, very suddenly and it left our life in shambles. I have never seen my mom so shaken. and miserable as I did after he died, and she is still this way almost 6 months later. Because they wern’t actually married when he died all his benefits went with him. My mom was left with nothing but her meager ss money she gets because she is permanetly disabled. She was left with bill, funeral expenses, lonliness, and a void that nothing could fix. Because of the amount of money that left she was unable to pay her bills. Thus brings us to the here and now. We are looking at places for my mom to go.
My mom isn’t that old, she’s 53 but she has COPD and is on oxygen 24/7 and just can’t get around well because she gets so winded. She needs someone with her at all times to monitor her as well as someone helping to shower her and get her to eat. I really feel like she’s on her last leg and it terrifies me that she’s dying. I know with COPD she’s basically going to suffocate to death and it’s really hard for me to hear her complain she can’t breathe.
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