Hospice

   My mom was taken to the hospital some point Sunday and I wasn't notified. I didn't figure out until Tuesday that she was sitting in the hospital with a dead phone. I finally get to the hospital and I get told that she's is now on Hospice, she can me for an exsasterbation of her COPD. She is not moving any air through her lungs which is necessary for her to live. This is why she's been in so much pain and why  her breathing has been weird. I feel so bad that I didn't catch it sooner. So now I'm sitting in a dark hospital room watching her sleep, cherishing the last few days that I have with her and wishing I could hear her tell me she loves me 1 last time. All of those time when she would just say it over and over and over and annoyed me, I'm wishing I could get one of those back right now.
   I'm 32 my dad died when I was 26, my step dad died when I was 31, and now my mom when I'm 32. I'm too young to be an Orphan, although I don't know if I would be considered an Orphan because I'm an adult with my own family.